It was a pretty rough night. I went out to dinner last night (not very smart of me I know), had a great time considering my insides felt horrible. I couldn't fully enjoy my dinner, I don't think I ate enough, the food did not want to go down. I can't explain why, but by the time I got back home I was feeling the worst of it. Possibly too much exertion walking & maintaining my body temperature (it was COLD out). When I got into bed around 10pm I felt this extreme exhaustion, my head hurt, my heart rate was high, and I didn't feel like I was breathing well. I woke up around 2am nauseous, the most I've felt yet. I thought I might throw up, so I got up & did some breathing exercises, trying to contain myself. I sat down in the kitchen, made myself 2 cups of ginger & honey tea, all the while trying to relax my breathing & heart rate. My resting heart rate was 120, so that was a concern. I went back to bed & continued to wake up almost every hour. Thankfully my heart rate has somewhat normalized, if you can call 104bpm "normal", but my heart tends to beat faster than most people anyway. The nausea subsided & best of all my breathing is better. It was a scary night waking up with a trio of problems multiple times & wondering 'when the hell is this weird feeling going to go away?' or 'will it?'
I'm afraid to walk very far now. Geeze. I guess I'm learning that this new chemo has a very delayed effect on my body & just when you think your getting better -your not. So I'm just going to keep on that nap schedule. As boring as it is, napping seems to be better for my body than walking lately.
