Nauseous Night

It was a pretty rough night. I went out to dinner last night (not very smart of me I know), had a great time considering my insides felt horrible. I couldn't fully enjoy my dinner, I don't think I ate enough, the food did not want to go down. I can't explain why, but by the time I got back home I was feeling the worst of it. Possibly too much exertion walking & maintaining my body temperature (it was COLD out). When I got into bed around 10pm I felt this extreme exhaustion, my head hurt, my heart rate was high, and I didn't feel like I was breathing well. I woke up around 2am nauseous, the most I've felt yet. I thought I might throw up, so I got up & did some breathing exercises, trying to contain myself. I sat down in the kitchen, made myself 2 cups of ginger & honey tea, all the while trying to relax my breathing & heart rate. My resting heart rate was 120, so that was a concern. I went back to bed & continued to wake up almost every hour. Thankfully my heart rate has somewhat normalized, if you can call 104bpm "normal", but my heart tends to beat faster than most people anyway. The nausea subsided & best of all my breathing is better. It was a scary night waking up with a trio of problems multiple times & wondering 'when the hell is this weird feeling going to go away?' or 'will it?'

I'm afraid to walk very far now. Geeze. I guess I'm learning that this new chemo has a very delayed effect on my body & just when you think your getting better -your not. So I'm just going to keep on that nap schedule. As boring as it is, napping seems to be better for my body than walking lately.

I Exercised

My awesome husband
made these for us <3

I feel better today, not a lot better, but in comparison to the last 2 days I can manage to do things instead of lay in bed all day. I took full advantage & exercised: 3 sets of body weight squats, 200 situps (variations), dumbbell curl, overhead, side lateral/front raise & triceps. Whenever I felt winded I took it slow. That's all I'll do today, fatigue is sneaky these days.

Hey if you want a mental image, picture my little dog on my stomach as I did sit ups. She is so needy! Can't let me exercise, has to sit on top of me! I don't mind lately as I've been pretty needy too. I told Rick when people get sick for now on we will buy them a dog. Having a sweet dog cuddle next to you when you feel bad has really helped my spirits. (I'm officially a dog person :-o )

*SERIOUSLY my husband is AMAZING, he GETS me. HE KNOWS ME. I dreamed about him my whole life & he is real!

Sunny Day!

We cut up a baby's outfit.

Its only a quarter to two! Can't this day be done already? I've been feeling the very icky effects of chemotherapy for 24hrs now. Trying to nap helps only a bit. My head is actually sick of laying down. Anywho, I forgot to mention that swallowing has been a problem, my esophagus is still cut up from a hard bagel I ate the other day. It doesn't help that my mouth is dry now, so its not healing. I woke up with more pain in my jaw today (probably my wisdom teeth acting up). I can't open my mouth that much, and my gums hurt so brushing my teeth is an obstacle.

I attempted to keep myself busy by cleaning my room and doing some crafts (my doggies new outfit).

Special delivery!

*Wish I could sleep these next few days away...
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Minutes after I wrote this I received a delivery! What a way to cheer someone up right? Thank you for the flowers John & Steffanie! You guys absolutely put a smile on my face today when I was feeling down and out! :D

Neutropenic

Today was a crappy day. I had a checkup in the morning. I thought I felt fine today until this uneasiness settled through my body as I rushed to get to my appointment. This uneasiness I speak of is this overwhelming tiredness that pours through my veins and gives me an almost light headed feeling. We were walking too fast and I could feel my heart jumping out of my chest, my lungs losing a bit more air than I'm used to. When they recorded my heart rate it was about 110bpm, so not too great. My bloodwork also showed that I was becoming neutropenic (I had low WBC count- meaning I can't fight off infections well). My doctor told me I would probably start feeling more tired and I had already begun noticing this morning.

I went out with a friend for lunch and was feeling worse by the hour. When I finally came back home I immediately prepared myself for bed, mind you it was only 3:30 in the afternoon. I napped on and off. The naps didn't help much the first few hours but its 9pm and I'm a little better  now. Today I noticed the less I move, the less crappy I felt. Assuming this is the trend I expect I'll be in bed a lot the next few days. I REALLY don't want to move -_-. My doctor told me I could get fevers again, so I'll be on the lookout for that. Oh joy!